I managed to gain back all the weight I lost last year. Yes, I went back to being a lazy bum who ate everything in front of her. I am ready for my whippings... But wait, just because you failed doesn't mean you ARE a failure. I believe that failing is giving up and just accepting things as they are. Winning and losing is a part of life, real success is about learning to accept bad things and move on.
So yeah, I got off track.
Didn't derail per se, but I stopped caring so much about the diet... But I actually miss the happiness of seeing results and being able to commit, so I'm back!
I'm 100% back on MFP, logging everything I eat. It's more difficult this time around because I've really taken to eating more natural food, so that means I have to weigh each individual ingredient... I often do forget to do that.
I've been taking lunch to work on most days, getting comments on how
my food is. I've found that if it doesn't make me save money it at least stops me from going to the convenience store so often, and I avoid the temptations :)
I've also started walking almost every evening, about 30 to 50 minutes a night on a 60-65% heart rate, hopefully that'll help the weight loss. Next week I hit the gym again, but I am thinking of calling it quits there, I've found that outdoor exercise is more fun and I can adapt it to my schedule!
I actually don't have a goal weight at the moment. Of course the nice 60kg number is still in my head, but I'm just looking to be healthier and hotter!!!
It's been almost a year since I started, and although my lowest weight was back in April, I feel I've come a long way and acquired so much more knowledge and respect for my body as a life tool.
In my last post, I mentioned I had some mint leaves growing... I also grow basil. That stuff grows out of control!!!
I actually don't eat enough of it to be honest, at least I don't seem to be able to eat it at the rate it grows. It also dawned on me that I'm growing herbs on my balcony in Tokyo... And there was a nuclear accident in the north of the country. I was getting myself worked up over it, if my herbs were healthy for consumption that is, but considering most of our vegetables come from Japan, we're f*cked anyway, and there seems to be no problem with the stuff that's pretty far away from the plant, but we can't really know for sure... Even last week there was a man selling really cheap peaches outside the train station (300yen for 5 big ones, I usually buy 3 small peaches for that price), and I wanted to buy them but then I didn't know where they were from and if they were from an area close to Fukushima, he probably wouldn't tell me anyway, so I didn't even stop to check them out properly. I digress...
So in an attempt to use my "home-grown" herbs, I ruffled up this as a late evening snack:
pepper and salt
Loves it!!!! The BF also loves it, so I only get to eat half of it. I know I keep on going on about it, but good (western) food is such a ripoff in Japan... When I was in university I'd eat fresh cheese all the time, here it's a weekly thing because 100grams of that cheese costs 300yen (about 4USD).
On another basil note, a few weeks ago I made some pesto using LOADS of basil, some mozzarella cheese, natural yoghurt, olive oil, garlic and a bit more seasoning. It was good but the garlic was a bit of overkill, as were the calories from the pasta. I'll try it again soon, but I'll try to substitute the pasta for something else, I wonder if the Shirataki (angel noodles) will do.
As the weather (humidity!!!) goes up, my energy levels go down...
In Japan we have to save energy now, because most of the nuclear reactors are turned off... So the AC isn't used as much as it could be.
Anyway, I've been growing mint on my balcony (and some other stuff), let's face it, I started growing it for the Mojitos. Fresh mint is difficult to find and terribly expensive. Anyway, I haven't had a mojito in over a month now, so the mint plant is kind of becoming a small shrub! I started thinking of how I could use it, besides for mint tea.
I got some frozen strawberries, non fat natural yoghurt, and a few mint leaves and... Voilá!
I also added some powdered collagen, just to get a boost for my skin and stuff.
Saturday was one of those days when... Well you know, you crawl out of bed at 11. (Actually it was 2pm but I'm kinda embarrassed to say it).
I had my all bran breakfast and cleaned the house a bit. At around 16:30 and after seeing my boyfriend go through two (2!!!) packs of potato chips while he played the PS, I was getting a bit hungry. The problem was I was getting one of those sweet attack moments, you know?
+-13 grams of walnuts
one teaspoon of raw organic honey
Mix and enjoy :D
That epic moment when you buy a gorgeous dress online and it fits your waist and hips but doesn't fit you around the breast area!
Fortunately/Unfortunately I never lose too much in this area, and being top heavy is not something I am happy about. Must be weird for women who don't have big boobs, but I tell you know, having to carry this shit around is not all it's cracked up to be.
Anyway, maybe if I lose 10lbs or so it might actually fit. Let's wait and see!